As I sit here, tears are burning the back of my eyes. This blog will be a secret. For my eyes only. Somewhere I can be honest and blunt, not scared of hurting anyone's feelings or someone finding my deepest darkest secret.
Life is funny. It's hard and confusing. Exciting and magical. It's all these things, these feelings, these emotions that get balled up into one big adventure. No one's adventure is ever the same. That's why they are beautiful.
I'm currently working on practicing gratitude. There's science proving that you can rewire your brain, and learn how to forgive yourself by actively practicing gratitude.
The last two mornings, I've written three things I'm grateful for and how they make me feel.
M and S are at the top of the list always. I love those two more than words can describe.
I hope I can become comfortable enough to truly open up, let things go, and move forward with my life. I'm so lucky, I'm so blessed, and I need to learn how to find that woman again. To let her win, to let her see the light.
